Next letter up... K. On being KNOWN

I have this deep longing to be known, but not in the American Idol kind of way.

This desire to be known & understood has birthed some pretty crazy expectations that I’ve heaped on others. Take for example, my husband - I expect that he knows, appreciates & gets who I am while I still give myself room to figure myself out. Poor Nate. I barely understand myself, and yet I expect that he should know me… and whether I really want Chinese for dinner or barbeque.

I live most of my life in juxtaposition.

I want to be known, but I don’t want to risk being misunderstood.

I want to be known, but I don’t want to be boxed in.

I want to be known, but only on my terms.

I want to be known, but only revealing the parts that I’m comfortable with exposing.

If you’ve been following my blog posts (I’m working through the alphabet sharing personal lessons life has taught me), you’ve likely pieced together that I feel like I’m living most of my life in the dark. But it’s in those dark places that I’ve found comfort that when I don’t understand myself, when I don’t see the way forward clearly, I can rely on the One who knows.

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God – Corrie Ten Boom

What’s more, He knows the pain you suffer. Your suffering has a name. A place.

He knows the way you take, when the path before you is uncharted.

To trust God in the light is nothing, but to trust God in the dark - that is faith. CH Spurgeon.

He understands the heart behind the message that wasn’t received the way you intended.

He understands the weight of the burden behind your desperate plea.

He understands what’s on your heart, when you cannot find the words to pray.

He knows, but better still, He understands you in all your wild eccentricities. He created you with them. He created you, with all your wonderful oddities, for Him.

(above photo found on Pinterest, of course).